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       Even asked yourself what is your place in this world ? Is it to please people ? Yes, we all know that we muslims are devoted to our Creator , Allah .  but the world that we are facing , sometimes we need to know what are we facing and do we need to care for other people ?  and i'm writing this on 1.48 am in early morning because that's the only time that nobody disturbing me . yes , i'm tired actually . on this world . of everybody . but  i'm not someone who just giving up when i dont understand the world . i'm the type of person who find a way to make myself happier .  all these people just keep working and just go with the flow in this world . while they just ignoring every little question that's on their mind .   

                      maybe i think too deeply about these kind of things. because i never knew my own feelings . i just want to make everybody happy . and i want to help people , every people that i meet . i want my existence to be helpful in any ways . if only i can be a social worker and travel around the world while helping people , yes i can be , but i still got my family to support and they just want me to have a job that would guaratee an easier life . recently Malaysia have been a mess , with the price have gone up and money changing have gone down . we never know whats with the politicants , i just hope no matter what , they will still brought Malaysia up to a better country . I dont want to know who's bad or whos's to blame . i know our Prime Minister now have been through a lot of hardship and i hope he will do his best. a government job would guarantee my lifetime. i think my family thinks that , i wouldn't mind though because i think that every job is a new thing for me to learn . i love to learn . my family loves me . i know that . i just dont know how to convince them that no matter what , we can always survive . it is not regretful when we doing what we love .